When something's coming to an end, the reality hits u so bad that u start living in the future rather than in the present. I can't seem to understand how my exchange has passed me by like a bullet train. Everything has been so wonderful yet so hard to piece together. I have fragments of memories here and there (even the insignificant details I do remember). If I could relive my exchange, I gladly would.
Today was the worst day of my exchange. I missed a whole night's sleep as I was busy puking for about 12 times the whole night and this morning. When I finally stopped, my stomach was an empty cave, I lost my ability to walk, and my hands and feet were numb without feeling. Thankfully Allison took really good care of me! She called for an ambulance which only came an hour later. The hospital staff came into my room to take my temperature and blood pressure. That's all they did. I was so angry. I expected to be sent to the hospital and to be placed on a drip.
But all they could say was that there wasn't enough space at the hospital and that they would only take me in if I was sick for 2 days. Bloody welfare state.... Apparently, many people have been hit by this virus recently. I am so unlucky to be one.
By then, I lost all confidence in myself to fight this virus. I was feverish and squirming around in pain from the tummy contractions. It sure felt like hell. I thought I was dying, especially when pictures of family and friends flashed across my mind. Soon I found myself eating this awesome medicine to cure stomach flu that Allison had bought from the nearby pharmacy. Everything was a blur. All I remember was waking up 3 hours later feeling slightly more energised and able to walk. Thank you Allison!
Last Sunday, at church, I felt a sense of assurance that God is with me. I see Christ in people's actions and behaviours and it warms my heart, for I know that God is the living God. Although I constantly ignore him in everything I do, he stays by my side and never lets go of my hand. And only in times of dire need, I turn to him and ask for mercy. And he never forsakes me, though I've often rejected him. God has blessed me with friends I don't deserve. He has walked with me all my life and it is only him that knows what's best for me. Even I am clueless about my life for I can't see the big picture he's mapped out for us all.
Valborg on the 31st of april was a crazy period in Lund. Never seen anything quite like it. 25000 people in a park partying like there's no tomorrow. U got to see it to believe it.
The trip to Ystad was peppered with rain and sun. It was a horrible feeling of hot and cold. Well, at least we perservered and managed to reach Ales Stenar (the Stonehenge lookalike). It was beautifully breathtaking!
This week's happenings: Stockholm here we come! Branboll tournament and rubbish throwing day coming soon (I don't look forward to that at all).
It has been a fruitful exchange. I do not regret the good and the bad. The bad only makes u appreciate the good more. The world is full of endless amazing possibilities and the most important takeaway is to be happy in your life.
"If a man is called to be a street sweeper, he should sweep streets even as a Michaelangelo painted, or Beethoven composed music or Shakespeare wrote poetry. He should sweep streets so well that all the hosts of heaven and earth will pause to say, 'Here lived a great street sweeper who did his job well." —
Martin Luther King Jr.
