“There seems to be a kind of order in the universe, in the movement of the stars and the turning of the earth and the changing of the seasons, and even in the cycle of human life. But human life itself is almost pure chaos. Everyone takes his stance, asserts his own rights and feelings, mistaking the motives of others, and his own.” - Katherine Anne Porter
Indeed.
We all fail, in so many ways, to please others and ourselves. Be it actions or words, they can be mistaken or ignored. Sometimes, or perhaps, all the time, we fuss over the trivial. To be smart not stupid, to be thin not fat, to be beautiful not ugly, to be accepted not outcast, to be loved not rejected, to be with company not alone. I look in the mirror and wonder how life’s experiences have moulded me to take this form. Am I a hypocrite, a liar, a backstabber or an enemy? I can’t deny that I am all these because I have been them before. I’m sure you too. I chase my dreams, yet when I get there, I take them for granted. Like they were meant to be mine in the first place. I guess I just like the chase but when the adrenaline fades, the thrills gone.
The fire dies.
