Sometimes, life just seems so pointless and meaningless. Being positive isn’t as easy as it seems. Right now, we’re all on the same track, trying our best for A levels, studying hard, being disciplined, avoiding distractions. But grades aren’t everything, we’ve gotta juggle family responsibilities, friendship, care and love. Seems like in the midst of preparing for exams, I’ve lost a part of myself. I’ve been outta touch such that the face in the mirror is my alter-ego. Well, prelims do not determine anything. We’ve got 7 more weeks to make it work. Sometimes, the seemingly most insignificant thing triggers a heartwarming emotion in me. How huizhen is such a simple practical girl who’s afraid she might dislike clothes she bought 3 weeks earlier, how chewyan blurts out the weirdest thoughts, how pris tries to bring the sunshine into everything, how yini laughs and talks till it becomes inaudible, how mer laughs at everything under the sun, how gimlim gives the I-want-to-smile-yet-I-don’t-wanna-show smile so often, how a frog leaps across the road so hurriedly, how the paralympians display such great courage and determination in their games. I could go on forever.
Today’s GP lesson on ‘religion, good or bad?’ seemed so far from good. My thoughts were mainly how religion divides instead of recruit. The numerous sectarian killings, internecine fighting, genocides, massacres in Darfur, Somalia, Iraq. Such unrest all ignited by racial and religious hatred. How could people not see that we’re humans all the same?
When are we gonna stand up as peopleRealize that as people we’re all equalWe don’t want no world war sequelFor the love of god, think of the peopleWe share one earth, one oxygen tank, and one humanity. Why can’t we all simply embrace one another, show respect and love? It’s been a roller-coaster ride of emotions lately. I’ve tried but I can’t disguise the way I feel inside. Maybe we’re trying too hard. Maybe I’ve been acting too cold. Maybe I indeed deserve such treatment, or maybe you just wanna agitate me with your indifference, just as I have. It’s been a hell of a ride and I’m getting jaded.
