It’s a triple-whammy for me.
1) Been unwell for a week, and I’ve yet to recover.
2) Bio grades are disappointing, as usual. I had expected it, but to see the whole reality come right in my face is a whole different experience. I trudged home, shuffled my feet, though I hate the sound of shuffling, but I was so despondent, I couldn’t care less.
3) Kimi Raikkonen’s tragic crash with 4 laps to go. Massa’s fuel hose mistake. Ferrari’s misfortune.
I find it hard to believe that Singapore actually hosted an F1 night race, with the roads that my mum usually drives on as the circuit, brightly lit as though it was daytime. Feels like it never happened. Yet it did. Well done Singapore! Love u.
Sometimes, life just seems so pointless and meaningless. Being positive isn’t as easy as it seems. Right now, we’re all on the same track, trying our best for A levels, studying hard, being disciplined, avoiding distractions. But grades aren’t everything, we’ve gotta juggle family responsibilities, friendship, care and love. Seems like in the midst of preparing for exams, I’ve lost a part of myself. I’ve been outta touch such that the face in the mirror is my alter-ego. Well, prelims do not determine anything. We’ve got 7 more weeks to make it work. Sometimes, the seemingly most insignificant thing triggers a heartwarming emotion in me. How huizhen is such a simple practical girl who’s afraid she might dislike clothes she bought 3 weeks earlier, how chewyan blurts out the weirdest thoughts, how pris tries to bring the sunshine into everything, how yini laughs and talks till it becomes inaudible, how mer laughs at everything under the sun, how gimlim gives the I-want-to-smile-yet-I-don’t-wanna-show smile so often, how a frog leaps across the road so hurriedly, how the paralympians display such great courage and determination in their games. I could go on forever.
Today’s GP lesson on ‘religion, good or bad?’ seemed so far from good. My thoughts were mainly how religion divides instead of recruit. The numerous sectarian killings, internecine fighting, genocides, massacres in Darfur, Somalia, Iraq. Such unrest all ignited by racial and religious hatred. How could people not see that we’re humans all the same?
When are we gonna stand up as peopleRealize that as people we’re all equalWe don’t want no world war sequelFor the love of god, think of the peopleWe share one earth, one oxygen tank, and one humanity. Why can’t we all simply embrace one another, show respect and love? It’s been a roller-coaster ride of emotions lately. I’ve tried but I can’t disguise the way I feel inside. Maybe we’re trying too hard. Maybe I’ve been acting too cold. Maybe I indeed deserve such treatment, or maybe you just wanna agitate me with your indifference, just as I have. It’s been a hell of a ride and I’m getting jaded.
It was both relief and jubilation yesterday. H3 was okay. Nevermind the strange case study since most people felt they same way. My hand never stopped moving. It wrote with such fury, there were times I could have almost tore the paper.
After the 4 week long prelim, it was high time for us to take a break. Guess where we went? Yes, u got it right! SENTOSA! Pity the sun was sleeping. But some of us still got tanned. Zhen, Mer and I were walking along Palawan beach, trying to look for the rest of the floorballers. At first we thought we waved to the wrong people because there was a random dude standing next to them. We felt stupid because we waved back at them really enthusiastically. When the random dude finally walks away and when we they came closer in sight, we realized that they were indeed the floorballers, playing soccer at the beach! We couldn’t stop laughing at ourselves.
I don’t have pics of yesterday, but I’m telling u that it was amazing. We talked for hours, took pictures and walked around Sentosa aimlessly – looking at love birds, taking pictures of a dead snake, having fun on the monorail. It’s just 4 weeks to the end of school and 6 weeks to the start of A levels.
My heart thumps feverishly as I think about:
1) how these wonderful people who have shaped my life are going their separate ways
2) how the big As is going to decide my fate
This photo captures the faces of the people I love so wildly. Plus those missing: Yini,Pris, Huijun
